Aliah: 17 years closer to death. Pakistani/ Hispanic. Currently residing in New York. My forte is the tattooed type. Music and books are my passions.
I NEED TO VENT and some advice would be nice.
Okay, so I don’t even know where to start. I’m in my first really serious relationship with a great guy, but sometimes I feel wrong?… So to say? Wrong is the wrong word. He has been in 2 past relationships, and he cheated on one of his girlfriends at the time. Now, we are only in high school, I’m a senior and he’s a junior but I want something out of this and I think he does too. When he says things I don’t know if it’s just talk or if he really means it. We were friends before we started dating, and about a month or so before we did start to date he told me who he did like and it wasn’t me. So I don’t know if he just settled for me or not. Also I see him in the hallways with this girl and it just bothers me. Even mutual friends think its weird he is with this other girl. Instead of coming to the band room to hang out with me and some other friends, he now stays in his study hall which I know this girl is in. I saw he had called her “sexii and cute” on Facebook as well. I don’t know, maybe I’m being irrational but it really irks me when I see him with girls a lot prettier and smaller than me. And I’ve always been insecure and self-conscious about myself; I don’t know how to change that…he just doesn’t get it, he can see it bothers me but he doesn’t change anything, and i cant tell him anything with looking like an insecure, crazy, jealous girlfriend.someone please help. I’m about to lose it, maybe I’m not built for relationships and was destined to really be forever alone.
